The reason I blog...

"You will have significant experiences. I hope that you will write them down and
keep a record of them, that you will read them from time to time and refresh
your memory of these meaningful, significant things. Some of them may be funny.
Some may be of significance only to you. Some of them may be sacred and quietly
beautiful. Some may build one upon another until they represent a lifetime of
special experience."
~Gordon B. Hinckley

Friday, April 23, 2010

{What a mother wants...}

So I was on my break today at work and I was blog hopping as usual.  I came across this post by one of my "favorite people I like to stalk but have never met in real life" blogs and wanted to share it with you.  You can check her out here!  When asked the question "What do mother's want?"  this was her response and I just want to say DITTO!  I agree completely and don't know if I could put it any better than she I'm just going to share it with you...

being a mom takes a lot of time, energy, patience, sacrifice and prayer.

bottom line, it's the most taxing job i've ever had.
but i would never exchange it for anything.

"what do i want?"

i took two full days to sit and think, and stare at my kids.
for the first time in a long time i sat quietly
and stared.
at them.

"what, as a mother, do i want?"

here's a little of what i came up with:

i want my kids to be safe, happy, healthy, successful in whatever they chose to be. i want my kids to be able to handle their trials and learn from them. i want my kids to have healthy relationships, i want my kids to think i'm the coolest person alive, i want my kids to learn to work hard, and enjoy the fruits of their labor. i want them to think about their future at a young age, i want my kids to be smart with their money, their education, their investments. i want them to hold tight to what we try to teach them, that God is good. i want my kids to stay close to the church. i want my kids to have faith that good can prevail. i want my kids to be able to stand firm in the storm of wickedness that this world is offering. i want them to be smarter than the average American thought of "you need this now, and you can pay for it later." i want my kids to be safe from porn, i want my kids to be safe from an abusive relationship, i want my kids to have great friends. i want my kids to not be bullied, i want my kids to value school, i want my kids to want to be good. i want my kids to want to stay morally clean. i want my daughter to be a mother, i want my boys to be loving and hard working fathers. i want my kids to always want to be sort of close but not too close so they have healthy relationships with their spouses and their family as an entity. i want them to be able to fix their own problems because of what i taught them. i want them to not do drugs, i want them to not drink, i want my kids to be best friends, i want them to be goody two shoes till their wedding night. i want my kids to basically be in a bubble that will protect them from anything harmful, anything wrong, and anything that will bring them pain.

as my thoughts swirled into a chaotic mess, and as i started to hyperventilate at the thought that my kids are going to have face so much before they move on from this earth...i stopped. wiped away the tears, i sat and i stared at my beautiful kids that i would lay down my own life for, and the final answer came to me:

"what do i want?"

"i want to be a good mother at every stage of their life. i want to be there for them and to be able to handle the choices (good and bad) they make with grace, humility, and love. i want to always be able to love them, and forgive them, and to always have open arms when they need me. i want them to know how much i rely on the Lord. i hope to be a good example that they would want to do what is right and good not by my words but by my actions."

so scratch all that other stuff. (well not really but you know what i mean)

i just want to be good for them.
that's all that matters.
nothing else can come close to that in my world.
i just hope to be a good one.

and that makes me nervous just the same.

so with that.


i'd love to hear.

it will make you think long and hard about those little noisemakers that make you so mad at times, in a different light even if for a minute. well, before one of them comes and tells you he just blew out a window in the barn with his brand new BB gun his grandma gave him for his birthday.

here's to grace and love...and counting to 10 before responding.

I think most of us mom's would agree with her don't ya think?!  Seriously go check out her blog...she's awesome and SO-SO funny, and she makes some pretty cool stuff also!  Absolutely inspirational!   

All the love in the universe~

Monday, April 19, 2010

I ran a 5K!!

So a while ago, I mentioned that I was training to run in a 5K...  Running is not something I've EVER liked to do!  I've had friends and family members run in races...and i've always thought they were crazy!  But for some strange reason...I decided I wanted to join them...and say that i've ran one!  So I started running/jogging/walking about 3 times a week for the past couple of months.  I've never calculated the distance I've gone each time...just tried to go at least 20-30 minutes.  At first it about killed me!  I'd get side aches immediately...I felt like I was an out of shape smoker or something! got easier each time.  I had planned to run in the Salt Lake City 5K with my sister in law, but she's had problems with her feet hurting I ended up running on my own...I almost decided to just bag the whole idea.  I'm SO glad that I didn't!  It was truly such a great experience!  I was overwhelmed at one point of the race when thinking of the cause everyone was running for...I seriously had to compose myself so that I didn't start crying!  Their were families there with pictures of their relatives who were suffering and fighting off cancer...and the one behind me was supporting a little girl just 6 years old.  I feel so blessed to have 2 healthy, beautiful children and to be healthy myself!  And can't imagine what these families must go through everyday.  It was awesome to see everyone pushing and motivating each other to the finish line!  Is it completely silly...that I was overwhelmed by the Spirit while I was running?  Well I was...and it was awesome!  The run wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be...there was one point at the top of the hill on our way back that I didn't think I was going to make it...but I kept telling myself, "I'm not going to die right now...I can go a little bit further!" and then i got through the hard part and it was down hill the rest of the way!  I don't know if I'm hooked on the running bug yet...but it was fun...and I think i'd do it again! 

I took this with my phone after the race...
which is why you don't see my hot and sweaty face! 

All the love in the universe~